An exploration of personal fear.
You must choose the one thing you can’t live without, the Universe whispered in my sleeping mind.
One thing? I answered. How can it be one thing? Should I hold out my hands and name them? They hold the pencil, the brush, the needle, the knife that make my art. How could I bear to make no art?
You could learn to manipulate different tools, explore new mediums that require a different dexterity, the Universe mused.
Right, I answered, but what if I say my vision? How could I bear to live without color? without looking into the eyes of those that see inside me, my truest friends? How could I give up my sight?
You would still see all the colors in your mind, your memory. You could feel the warmth of your friends’ love even before they speak. You know what is behind their gaze just as they know what is behind yours.
My ears? To never hear the ocean’s songs, the soft brush of the breeze, a blue jay calling, laughter, Beethoven’s Ode to Joy, my name whispered by a lover. No, I couldn’t.
Again – all those experiences are rooted in your memory, to call up and enjoy as you please.
Oh, no – not my memory- you wouldn’t take that. I would have nothing, no soul, no joy, no purpose.
You have named it, the Universe chuckled, but I don’t believe you know it true yet.
I felt the indigo blanket soft and warm and gently crushing colors blurred and ran to a brown sameness, echos of voices and laughter rose and fell until there was no meaning, until finally there was nothing, a velvet void.
I floated. A softness, like a whisper, wrapped around my throat.
“Who are you?” I asked.
The whisper faded, sliding down my throat, over my heart and I felt it move away, its echo growing fainter.